You want
the thrill of inquisition
persistent distinction
first chance at rejection
while projecting false reflections
You want
devastating masculinity
hetero affinity
bisexual proclivities
and no homo idiosyncrasies
Even if it is a lie.
You want a freak who can love you
Without really holding you
Definitely not in public
No, only cold recognition
You want a real man
hard as a rock
no fats, no fems
and he must understand
why he's always on top
You want him real rough
a real rough rider
a baller, shot caller
cap to the front
until he makes you bleed
or until he breaks your arm
or until he slashes your throat
or drowns you in your bathtub
... to an audience of Kiehl's bottles ...
but then your image won't matter anymore
what you need to feel like a man
what you need to feel love
what you need to feel real
what you need to nut
won't matter anymore
and then it won't matter what you want.
