“If you hear a song that grows
From my tender sentimental woes
That was my heart trying to compose
A prelude to a kiss ...”
I think I got the sign I was looking for today.
This afternoon, I was sitting at my computer and my buzzer rang. I thought it was some more work, but no - it was a piece. A really nice piece at that. My first instinct was to ignore him, but I buzzed him up. He got to the door, expecting me to welcome him in. Instead, I kinda blocked the opening and said "You know, I really can't do this anymore. I'm kinda seeing someone." He's okay with it ... maybe a little disappointed, but he turns and heads back down the stairs.
He turns again and asks, "Are you sure?"
"Yes."
Later that night as I'm chatting with friends, I get a call. I thought it was Philippe, but no, I misread the phone number and it was my other piece. My favorite one. He took me completely by surprise! After some small talk, I lie - saying that I already had company. After a little bit more small talk (and a comment that sounded a tiny bit like jealousy of my 'company'), our conversation comes to a close and I think about what I'd just done.
For some reason, both of these men had never called me on the same day before today.
I still don't feel this overwhelming Fantasy Love Thang yet (and I don't think he does either), but I do like this guy and I see the potential for a loving relationship. I always thought that when the right man came along, it would be so obvious and I'd be crying from happiness and I'd be deleting all my dating profiles and I'd be sending e-mails to everyone I knew about our upcoming wedding - but I don't feel any of that. And I want to feel at least some of that ...
... but maybe this is the beginning of it?
Seems as if the streets are callin’ Donald — and you’re turning down left and right … Must be nice! I’m glad to hear about all of this … Make sure I get an invite to the wedding!
Congrats! I wish you nothing but the best.
Small and steady baby, small and steady.
And I best be the flowerboy! :-)
Slow ya roll. You can’t rush love. Take each day as it comes and enjoy what ya got and before ya know it, the bells start to ringing.
Love is very rarely like what we expect. Enjoy the emotions honestly. Who knows where they will lead.
Beginnings are awesome. But as the brothers suggest, take it slow and easeee…it’ll be what it’s meant to be…and if that being is complete than everyday, from here on out, will be just like the beginning. I think in all my years of dating, in and out of relationships, this is what I’ve learned most in the past year…true love is when each day feels like a beginning.
Beathe, release, enjoy, and see where the new takes you.
But I do have to laugh at your having to turn down two callers in the same day, if only we could all be so fabulous to even have that kind of action going on.
Peace