Okay, maybe I shouldn't really joke around about that, but I feel fine and am not stressed. Sure - sometimes I wonder when's the next time it will happen? Will I be riding my bike through Central Park? Will I be on a ladder painting my ceiling? Will I be on the subway? Sometimes, if I think really hard about it, I feel a faint throb and imagine it as another smaller heart beating in my head. Then I feel it in the other side of my head. Then I feel it in the back of my neck. Then I feel it underneath my ear. Then I think "Psychosomatic?" and they all seem to disappear.
Okay, maybe I'm a little stressed. I don't know what the fuck this is in my brain, but I'm taking steps to find out. On Monday, I visited the Ralph Lauren Center for Cancer Care and Prevention. The first thing I noticed when I entered the waiting room was that it's VERY Ralph Lauren - those leather chairs, the tray on the table with fashionably placed art books, the paint. Maureen, one of the center's nurse practitioners, was extremely helpful. An older white lady, white hair, glasses: she might have been the nurse of your elementary school. She brought me into her office and informed me that what I described would be classified as a grand mal seizure, during which a negligible amount of your brain cells die. She also let me know that, by law, St. Luke's/Roosevelt must follow up my emergency room visit with one to their neurosurgery clinic. She also began to show me some health insurance options, but that will be a hard nut to crack without a job. She asked me with lots of warm matronly insistence to come back and not to allow the lack of health insurance to be a hinderance, promising to track me down if she had to. I left, feeling assured and empowered, ready to go back home and put some more energy into beautifying my home.
Yesterday, I woke up thinking I'd walk over to St. Luke's, but I called instead. I left a message and they called back to schedule me for an appointment the week after next. Progress. Now, it's about minimizing stress eliminating stressors at every turn. I'm sure my life depends on it.
It does. Eliminating stress is a good thing. I gotta say though, I probably would have walked. No telling who you would have run into. ;-)
I’m glad you followed up so you know what you are dealing with. It figures you would go to the Ralph Lauren Center. Heh.
hey there..im glad you got the additional opinions and help..ralph lauren center? figures you would go there for help..hehehehe
ill call you when i get situated in pittsburgh this weekend…ive been a wreck trying to find a way to send my boxes before i go (how are mailing services going to put down COD as a payment option and NOT have a space for it on their payment screen??? grrrrr)
Ryan
Donald: I pray all is well with you and your health!