Just before, I had to take a break to go outside and get some sun or air or something. Sometimes, I swear, I don't know if I'm qualified to deal with the diverse mental instances that show up at the counter. It frames so much of my life right now and it will for some time to come. I feel it taking its toll along with everything else that demands some money or moment of concentration in my life. I'm not complaining, really, because there's opportunity in there as well, but lately ... and lonely ... I don't know.
This guy came to the counter yesterday and did something to me. His incredibly placid demeanor washed over me like a warm bath from a lover, me in my Chaka Khan t-shirt. Of course. I could have spent all day with him and I wondered about a life. I kept looking into his eyes and not looking away, and none of my defenses were working.
yup - can’t count the number of torid love affairs i have had, moment by moment….